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babyphatchicxo
Feb. 4th, 2010
02:24 pm - wow..
ok so i havent updated my livejournal since 2006. this is pretty crazy! so much has changed since 2006. so my mom moved out. my dad moved out. i moved out for like a year and half. that was some crazy times. i still have my car. my life is not going the way i want it. i feel like its been reduced to a whole lot of nothing. in one of my last entries, i said i wanted to dissappear. yea i think i did. i hardly go out. and im ok with that. i dont really talk to anyone and no one really talks to me. the only person who ever really wants me to hangout is andrea. my dad is still a dick. its great. im not sure anyone could really be jealous of me. not even if they tried. whatever.
crappyJul. 7th, 2006
02:04 am - im going crazy crazy crazy jus thinking bout u lately
did u ever miss someone and hate dislike them with a passion so much it makes you wanna scream? i wish i never met mike i feel like im going crazy! aaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! ive been thinking bout him for some time now and i jus cant seem to get him out of my head! im fucking miserable knowing that i feel this way and he probably forgot all about me :0(
crazyJul. 1st, 2006
02:22 pm - cuz im broken...
yea so i decided to update my livejournal becuz im bored. since the last time i had wrote in my livejournal, my car broke down on the middle of the southern state becuz the car is a piece and some home or another the cam sharft broke? that was mind boggling. the day i went car shopping me and my dad went to queens looked at a really crappy chevy blazer which was gross. then we went to a town in nassau which was on the way home and looked at a oldsmobile bravada which wasnt in complete total destruction but it wasnt worth wut the guy asked for it which was $5000. the car definitely needed some work .
so after we were done my dad and i went back to his apt and i was proceeding to get home. i was driving his formula. i was used to driving my car and at first couldnt figure out why he dint want me driving his car in the rain. well becuz i have to learn everything the hard way. i must of stepped on the gas a little to hard and well had a telephone stop my swerving. yes i crashed my dads formula head on and couldnt be more center in the middle of the car if i wanted to. that really sucked. so that was one of the many joys of my life this year. i did get a new car though. i heart it. its the most new car i will prolly ever get to drive.
ok so i was thinking the other day. i used to think on how great it would be if for sometimes i could just dissappear for a little while. just to get away from everything and everyone. and now since everyone works during the day and i work mostly nites plus the fact that i work seven days a week i feel like i did. i wish i didnt feel the need to work 7 days a week. but i feel like that if i stop and actually have 1 job then i wont be able to afford my car. i dont no anymore. i guess thats all for now.
peace
~ kimmy gibs
lonelyJun. 5th, 2006
04:38 pm - my life
* im bored
* im tired
* i couldnt sleep last nite
* my head hurts cuz of the accident
* i feel like brian doesnt really care bout me any more
* i hate how things change
* im excited bout getting my new car
* its black and pretty <3 lol
* i have work at 6
* all i want to do is sleep
* i feel like im losing reasons on why i should get up in the mourning
* i wish things were different
* i want to go to the beach
* i want my summer to get better
crushedJun. 1st, 2006
12:23 pm - part 2
ok so the next day after the air show...i chilled wit stinebean for the secodn time. it was alot of fun. we went to tgi fridays nd sandy was our server so we got strawberry daiquiries. stinebean thought it was funny cuz we were drinking for the hour of 1 pm. at about 3 i had work till 11. it wasnt so exciting. it dint seem that busy cuz there was 3 people on. but it was still work. i would of rather of chilled wit brian at 6 but money is always nice. yesterday wasnt really to exciting . so until next time..ttlyl
numbMay. 31st, 2006
10:35 am - part 1
wow so i had an interesting weekend! so it started off with me losing my car..becuz the camshaft broke..so now its broken till this weekend. and i've never found it to be more humorous sittin on the side of the southern state becuz well car is jus goin no more. so the next day of course i worked at starbux in the mournin..that never happens! so the one time that i have from 1230 in the afternoon on i have no car! like wut tha fuck! so after sitting at home for the entire day gettin all pissed off cuz i cud of been out doin something like chillen wit brian..stinebean calls me up! wow she is def a lifesaver that girl. its funny cuz it had beeen llike gross out side all day like lite rain nd that good stuff..so she wanted to go see over the hedge wit her little sister so it ended up being that the movie was sold out..so then we ended up going mini golfing...hahah soo many good times. it was cute jess her little sister thought that she got a hole in one at the last hole...until i had told her that her ball went down a giant tube. nd that her bowl didnt make it. but it was a nice idea. sat was coool well not really i worked. but sunday was awesome. i went to jones beach to watch the air show. that was awesome i saw a black hawk the blue angels and other good stuff..but tis be continued i hav work
May. 25th, 2006
12:24 am - aaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...:i wanna run away:..
welcome to my life..please enjoy ur stay!
frustratedMay. 23rd, 2006
01:47 am
SlIp OuT tHa BacK
Tried to make it through my day so i could sleep at night
Tried to figure out my way through the maze
Of rights and wrongs, but like you used to say
Nothing feels like it's really worth it
Forget perfect, i'm trying not to be worthless
Since i last saw you i been lookin for a purpose
Well i met this kid who thought like i did
He had a weird way of lookin at it
This is what he said
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
I dont remember where i met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck fifty
And what he said just seemed so right it stuck with me
Listen its like poker you can play your best
But you got to know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards and hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck because
I dont need to tell you that life isnt fair, it doesnt care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air, and like you i want someone to say its okay
But in the truest parts of our hearts everybody's afraid
But just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that were scaring ourselves
You understand when im saying that you always did
But its different in the words of a cowardly kid
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Im no hero, you remember how i was, you know
All i ever did was worry, feeling out of control
To the point where everything was going end over end
Im spinning around in circles again
This is where you come in
All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life
Please remember this isn't how i hoped it would be
But i had to protect you from me
Thats why i slipped out the back before you knew i was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time i was around i just bring you down
And i could tell that it was time to be scared
Thats why i slipped out the back before you knew i was there
And i know the way i left wasnt fair
I didnt want to be around just to bring you down
Im not a hero but dont think i didnt care
stressedMay. 17th, 2006
06:32 pm - in a moment..everything can change
heyy guyys wuts kicken? ok so i really cant freakin take much more bullshit at home. its really starting to drive me crazy. this monster that was created by wrong doings. and now me and my bro and sis are trying to cope wit it i guess. i jus wish things could be different. i feel like im running to someone and no one is there. all this anger i have towards my dad i never thought i would feel for anyone. i just...i just want to cry all the time. and i cant freaking take it any more. i knew wut sadness felt like but i didnt know that it could hurt so much. i havent really smiled in a long time. i wish i could. i dont no . i really dont no wut write.
stressedMay. 15th, 2006
10:44 am - wow long time no talk peeps
heyy guys wuts goin on. ok so everytime i start to write in one of these things i always kind of give myself a welcome back and then well never really come back. because of whats happened in my life over these past few months my mom sed that i needed a way to vent because i have way to much anger. lolol. whats really sad is wen i got my new tattoo like a week ago wit carissa ( which by the way is the cutest tattoo ever cuz its a unicorn wit a flower in its mouth) ((if u was wondering)) even the tattoo guy said i was bitter! but then again he doesnt no what happened and i feel that im justified to feel the way i do. so now if u no what happened congratulations and if u dont then what ever i dont really feel like explaining whats happened. so any way yeesterday was mothers day. it was nice i guess to the extent taht it could be. last year sucked cuz everyone knows bout mike salvo nd how he overdosed. this year i spent it wit really two amazing woman goin through the battles cancer. ( my mom and my gramma) if yall couldnt figure it out. i feel really bad for my mom i mean i wish i could do something. but anyways to day was my last day of western civ. and i pray that i passed the final. i have been slacking in school so much. school is just not my forte. and if i had some sort of musical talent like hell i would be going for it then school. i was watching this thing on american idol woman last nite and kerry underwood is like me she dropped out of college to pursue her dreams. but i dont have talent. so maybe i should start playin the lottery. lolol what are my chances of winning a million dollars again? i suggested it to my mom. u no throwing the idea of what she would say. adn she came up wit a realyl good point. and i quote "with the luck we''ve been having?" haha well said mom well said. but then i came up wit well are luck couldnt get any worse? gosh i feel like my life is a soap opera. or a televisoion show. u no the type wen things cant get worse and then they do. and then u think nothing else can go wrong. and they do. and then theres a huge triumph at the end. thats what im waiting for. my huge triumph. anyways im chillen wit brian tonite. i love chillin wit him. all we do is watch tv & or movies or sometimes both. and i love it! alot of people would find it boring. but i think its just nice to go to his apartment and relax. you dont got to worry bout extra driving or waisting extra gas or worrying if your gunna catch that movie. or wen do u have to pick up this person. or drive them home. or meet up wit these people at this time and where your gunna meet them. and worrying bout what they want to do. or vice versa. anyways thats my life. and welcome to it.
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